My life is at it's crossroad

I always thought I had passed my crossroad, passed it without even realising. I've always wondered what the big deal about them were anyway. Until today.

You see my life is at a crossroads. And I am the chicken. Ok the chicken bit needs to be explained later because right now it won't make sense. But for now I will continue.

The crossroads in my life right now are leading so many different ways, but the path of each one of those roads, remains unclear. I have the basic University Graduate and University Dropout as my main roads. But then my minor roads are all over the place and there are so many that vary from internships, fight for a year abroad, start over in a new place with a new subject, placements, societies to join, jobs to get, and modules to choose.

There is ofcourse the major thing. Do I become successful and do what I want, leaving my family in affect behind. Or do I remain the girl that always got in to places and achieved things the family never did but stayed at home close to the family and now works in a supermarket?

I have dreams, aspirations. But as of yet these are not so clear. I am like Alice from Twilight. My visions are somewhat subjective. I can't see what they are clearly because what I want is changing all the time.